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Love Believes | Five Years Later

On November 30, 2009, I received some devastating news. The kind of thing that knocks you off your feet and causes a lot of strong people to completely crumble.

There have been many difficult days, some torturous. Some where I honestly didn’t know if I’d make it through.

I’ve felt immense pain and heartache every single day.

I’ve watched those I love dearly hurt deeply, and felt worries and challenges I never imagined.

Yet God has sustained, provided and seen us through it all, one day at a time.

But don’t mistake strong faith and confidence in God for easy. It’s not. It’s also not supposed to be.

Tom Petty was right, the waiting is the hardest part. At least for me. I’m naturally impatient, maybe we all are to some extent.

We want answers and easy fixes RIGHT NOW. And it’s easy to be discouraged when we don’t get them.

But God grows us through trials and difficult circumstances.

And it only seems like nothing’s happening.

God is always at work on the other side of the mountain.

I don’t regret, for even a minute, making the decision to not give up in the face of seemingly hopeless circumstances. And I have found joy in perseverance, even on the worst days. (Romans 5:3-4).

Again, I’m not pretending it’s easy. If you want to give up, good. That means you’re normal.

What I’m saying is, just don’t.

Nobody’s walking around with massive stockpiles of faith, reserves they can just dip into on demand. That’s not how God works.

He says to renew our minds daily.

Even Jesus had to make time to be alone with God at the beginning and end of every day.

God really does give us the manna our soul needs today.

I’m convinced that the greatest place to be in life is totally dependent on God.

He’s got this.

And so do we, if we trust and obey and if, as Galatians 6:9 says, we do not quit.

Isaiah 40:31 promises strength for those who wait on God. And Psalm 40:1 reminds us that even the king had to wait.

I love what David Mathis says about waiting:

“When you feel the first resistance, let it be a reminder to go Godward. Recalibrate the focus of your faith. Move the weight of your trust off self, where it keeps gravitating back, and consciously reorient on God. Whether it’s simply spare moments or seemingly endless days, waiting is no waste in God’s economy. It is in the delays and the pauses, and in becoming aware of our lack of patience, that he works to save us from self-reliance and revitalize our faith and hope in him.”

I trust in God’s perfect timing and His ability, and desire, to do the impossible and to truly heal.

Don’t you dare tell me that my God can’t. He specializes in fixing what’s broken, breathing life into that which was dead and doing the impossible.

So, yeah, I believe God can. And I believe God will.

And although there isn’t a pretty little bow on this story yet, I can look you in the eye and tell you that I believe more today than ever. (Hebrews 11:1) The fact that I can say that is a testament to God’s grace and love. Nothing else…

For all those who’ve prayed, believed, encouraged or lent support throughout this time–emotionally, logistically, provisionally and/or spiritually–all I can say is, thanks. Especially you late night pep talkers. I am grateful beyond words.

Keep praying. Keep believing…




Quick Quote | Henry Ford: On Obstacles

“Obstacles are what you see when you take your eyes off of the goal.”
– Henry Ford

A goal worth pursuing is, by definition, not going to be without some challenges.

If you’re climbing a mountain, it maybe the rocks or felled trees in your path, the thin air, the fatigue or steep inclines that try to steal your attention or shake your resolve. Don’t lose sight of the view from the top that’s waiting past the pain..

If it’s a restored relationship you’re fighting for, it may be the disappointments, the let downs, the hurt, the frustration, the waiting or the pain in the eyes of people you love who are also hurting. Don’t give up. Remember the promises of Luke 15, and how God never gave up on you, no matter what.

If it’s a health issue, remember, the road back is sometimes long and difficult, but recovery is worth it.

Whatever challenges you’re working through, remember that anything worth attaining takes effort, and that the hard work is worth it. Each road bump, thunder bolt and obstacle you get past brings you one step closer to your fulfilling your mission.

In some cases, you may not even be aware of the goal, or where it’s all leading. You may be facing a series of difficult circumstances that seem completely random and pointless.

But consider King David. As a young shepherd boy, he fought off a lion and a bear. I’m guessing that rescuing a sheep from the jaws of a lion or bear was never the driving purpose in his life, but it’s how he made it through those challenges that determined the extent to which God would use him.

For many, one such feat would be the crowning achievement of their lives. Today, they’d write a book, sell the movie rights, do a TedTalk and hit the speaking circuit.

But God had so much more in store for David.

Only the confidence gained and lessons learned in those situations could provide David with the real world courage to fight Goliath, while seasoned soldiers shook in their armor on the sidelines.

Our scariest days, and the giants we’re facing right now, are preparation for what God is ultimately working toward in and through us.

So even if you don’t know exactly where he’s taking you, trust that He’s got a plan and that, in the end, it will all make sense.

And, never take your eye off of the prize!