There have been many difficult days, some torturous. Some where I honestly didn’t know if I’d make it through.
I’ve felt immense pain and heartache every single day.
I’ve watched those I love dearly hurt deeply, and felt worries and challenges I never imagined.
Yet God has sustained, provided and seen us through it all, one day at a time.
But don’t mistake strong faith and confidence in God for easy. It’s not. It’s also not supposed to be.
Tom Petty was right, the waiting is the hardest part. At least for me. I’m naturally impatient, maybe we all are to some extent.
We want answers and easy fixes RIGHT NOW. And it’s easy to be discouraged when we don’t get them.
But God grows us through trials and difficult circumstances.
And it only seems like nothing’s happening.
God is always at work on the other side of the mountain.
I don’t regret, for even a minute, making the decision to not give up in the face of seemingly hopeless circumstances. And I have found joy in perseverance, even on the worst days. (Romans 5:3-4).
Again, I’m not pretending it’s easy. If you want to give up, good. That means you’re normal.
What I’m saying is, just don’t.
Nobody’s walking around with massive stockpiles of faith, reserves they can just dip into on demand. That’s not how God works.
He says to renew our minds daily.
Even Jesus had to make time to be alone with God at the beginning and end of every day.
God really does give us the manna our soul needs today.
I’m convinced that the greatest place to be in life is totally dependent on God.
He’s got this.
And so do we, if we trust and obey and if, as Galatians 6:9 says, we do not quit.
Isaiah 40:31 promises strength for those who wait on God. And Psalm 40:1 reminds us that even the king had to wait.
I love what David Mathis says about waiting:
“When you feel the first resistance, let it be a reminder to go Godward. Recalibrate the focus of your faith. Move the weight of your trust off self, where it keeps gravitating back, and consciously reorient on God. Whether it’s simply spare moments or seemingly endless days, waiting is no waste in God’s economy. It is in the delays and the pauses, and in becoming aware of our lack of patience, that he works to save us from self-reliance and revitalize our faith and hope in him.”
I trust in God’s perfect timing and His ability, and desire, to do the impossible and to truly heal.
Don’t you dare tell me that my God can’t. He specializes in fixing what’s broken, breathing life into that which was dead and doing the impossible.
So, yeah, I believe God can. And I believe God will.
And although there isn’t a pretty little bow on this story yet, I can look you in the eye and tell you that I believe more today than ever. (Hebrews 11:1) The fact that I can say that is a testament to God’s grace and love. Nothing else…
For all those who’ve prayed, believed, encouraged or lent support throughout this time–emotionally, logistically, provisionally and/or spiritually–all I can say is, thanks. Especially you late night pep talkers. I am grateful beyond words.
Keep praying. Keep believing…